I think I have to learn to accept that my need for affection is higher than my partner's therefore I will always want more hugs than him.... and learn that hugs aren't the measure of a relationship, but just a fortunate accompaniment.

Confused......

Here I am being confused.  I'm making Tim mad by asking for love. Asking for a kiss, a hug..... Apparently it's annoying him, he says if I didn't ask he'd give more....

So why do I ask? Why is my need for attention so high? Why do I place so much value on touch and affection?

I guess, unfortunately to be a cliché, but the roots of all this may lie with my parents.  I can remember only once as a child walking in on them having a kiss, and the times I've seen them hold hands whilst walking are few and far between.

So maybe I over compensate as the thought of such a loveless relationship terrifies me.

Maybe its due to my Dad's choice in career.  Throughout my child and adolescent hood his job meant he went to work for weeks at a time and consequently was home for weeks at a time.  Maybe as a child I just didn't get it.  Didn't understand why someone I loved kept leaving me....

I don't like who I've become.

I don't know how to change.