NIGHTS

My job means I have to work nights and they suck.  Though one of the best feelings you can have is that moment when you leave work in the morning, sun shining, a but chilly, and you head off home to a warm comfy bed with a naked boy waiting with open arms for you.

It's a certain kind of bliss

15th Feb

I'm in love.  BIG time in love. he's awesome. and mine :)
when he looks at me my heart skips a beat
i'm impatient for experiencing all the days i can with him
he's my world

Try Again

So this is my second attempt at blogging.  My last go was in a much darker time when things were not going as well as i'd hoped.  Now, things are much better, much brighter but much more confusing......


It' s life changing decision time and I just don't know which decisions will be the right ones.


"Your routine is a prison...set yourself free"


Poignant but flippantly placed on the back of a bus ticket many many years ago by some evil advertising company though as to what they were advertising I never knew.


But it is a prison, routine, and it is something i am endeavouring to set myself free from.


I'm a nurse.  I don't mind being a nurse but then again mostly I do.  I like interacting with the general public but in the hospital setting it can get a bit wearisome.  


I'm a snowboarder.  i love it. i love the mountains, the fresh air, the runs, the adrenaline, the meeting new people, the discovering new ways to the bottom. Everything about it.


So the choices......


1) drop out of the rat race and run a chalet with my partner who is as mad about snowboarding as me


2) emigrate to New Zealand or Canada, carry on our day-to-day jobs but open our bedroom window in the morning to see mountains capped with snow...


The disadvantages....


1)- what the hell to do in the summer!!
    - if it doesnt work out we would have to come back to the UK to save for choice 2 (I'd be on a considerably lower wage for daring to leave the NHS)


2)Canada- costly (though i'll be on a better wage)
                  - more time consuming (winter of 2011/12 would probably still be in the UK)
                  - conversion courses for canada nursing


   New Zealand - not as costly (not as better a wage)
                           - quicker
                           - maybe no conversion courses


so, how to make the decision, well there's an expo in feb and one in march for emigrating, the feb one being just for nurses, the second for everyone, though it's my job that seems like it will be the difficult one to emigrate with and then some more informed decisions can be made....


and in the mean time a whole lot of dreaming and indecision i guess........